Saturday, 23 October 2010

Make Me Wanna Die

Yeah, so a lot has changed. I hate Abigail, who now gets drunk, stoned, smokes, and has sex on a regular basis. I should stick by her, but I'm sick of being the one to pick up the pieces.

I don't really talk to Sophia, but her and Abigail hate each other now.

I still like Anna. Anna's still straight.

Most of the school knows I'm a lesbian. Thanks to someone I'm not particularly fond of. She says things about me behind my back, and upsets me so much I want to die. It's not the things she says, it's that she's lovely to my face.

I dated Anna's best friend, because I thought I'd gotten over her. Turns out I haven't, and now her best friend can't get over me. God, she thinks I didn't see that look on her face when I was teaching Anna to play Fireflies on guitar.

I think Anna might know I like her, or she might just know that I'm worried about her, because she almost broke down crying a couple of days ago when I asked her what was wrong, and she doesn't cry. I've magically just so happened to buy her favourite foods, and learn her favourite songs on guitar recently. I something's wrong, and I don't want her to have to go through it alone, whatever it is.

My parents spilt up, and my step-dad won't move out, even though he said he would months ago. I'm taking my GCSEs next year.

If anyone reads this, did any of you have a crush on a cartoon character when you were younger? I always liked Jessie from Toy Story.