Tied Together With a Smile

I'm happy =)
I had academic review today; apparently I have the ability to stand up to people I don't like. Thinking about it, it's true. I'm the only one who calls out Amanda. I try not to let Gertrude and that lot see they're getting to me, which is about I can do to combat the cowards.

Defying Gravity

"It Gets Better". When? I was watching the It Gets Better Project videos; "...Who you choose to love..." choose?! Why would anyone choose this?!

Only Chris Colfer's video is at all encouraging. Out of the ones I've looked at that is.

Fuck my life. Fuck it. I have the word FREAK scarred into my arm because that's what I am; a freak.

I watched Glee this week; "Courage"; you have no idea how much that meant to me. But what the fuck can I do about a bunch of bitches who are too afraid to say anything to my face? They told the whole fucking school before I was ready to be out. Of course, this is mainly Amanda's (the only reason I'm protecting her identity is to protect mine) fault; she outed me to my form, some of whom told Megabitch (who shall be named Gertrude). They've been spreading rumours about me, too - what I don't get is why Janet (one of Gertrude's friends) is helping to spread a rumour that I have a crush on Janet.

My best friends are making fun of me too - I know they don't mean to hurt me, but they do. And I don't want to tell them why.

I named this defying gravity because I want to defy gravity - in a number of ways. I want to be a little girl again, and fly away to Neverland when things get tough; no need to worry if I liked Daphne from Scooby Doo a lot more than Fred. I want to defy gravity in that I have no body; I want to die - I wouldn't commit suicide, in my mind that would be cowardice on my part; but I want to die. I also want to show Gertrude, Janet, Martha, and Alyssa (who is quite nice) how much better I am - defy gravity in the sense Kurt Hummel did.